Hi
So according to the title itself I would like to talk about finding yourself at this age. Tbh I am still lost in my own world. I don't know who am I, what would I want to be in the future and why am I even alive. I'm still trying to find myself who am I and what is my purpose of living. What exactly my goals in life.
I have goals no doubt about that but my goals are more towards serving other people well or be a good kid to my parents. Of course that will be everyone's goals right? I mean't my own goals. What I want in myself. It's hard when you are not selfish and when you are trying to be one you will end up feeling bad about it. I do realized that I give a lot towards people around me rather be the taker. I know people often take me for granted despite of my existence whenever they need me well... I'm that friend who is always there when you need me in other words.
So this entire process of my life is for me to search my inner self which I should be proud of being myself. As a I grew older, I tend to hate everything about myself. From the way I look, my academic grades, my skills and my capabilities in living as a person. I don't have that special skills like other people you know. Everything I do is just on the average par. I am not amazed with myself cause yknow it's just my negative thoughts kicking in. I've been negative towards myself. I am 23 I'm supposed to care about other things which are more important. Who gets depression at this age? Yeap it's me. It's getting out of hands now due to the fact that I'm still searching for myself. I envy to those who are settling down with their lives. Settling down doesn't mean that they are married it's just settling down in terms where they already found themselves.
I just need help. But no one is here to help me and nobody can help me..
So according to the title itself I would like to talk about finding yourself at this age. Tbh I am still lost in my own world. I don't know who am I, what would I want to be in the future and why am I even alive. I'm still trying to find myself who am I and what is my purpose of living. What exactly my goals in life.
I have goals no doubt about that but my goals are more towards serving other people well or be a good kid to my parents. Of course that will be everyone's goals right? I mean't my own goals. What I want in myself. It's hard when you are not selfish and when you are trying to be one you will end up feeling bad about it. I do realized that I give a lot towards people around me rather be the taker. I know people often take me for granted despite of my existence whenever they need me well... I'm that friend who is always there when you need me in other words.
So this entire process of my life is for me to search my inner self which I should be proud of being myself. As a I grew older, I tend to hate everything about myself. From the way I look, my academic grades, my skills and my capabilities in living as a person. I don't have that special skills like other people you know. Everything I do is just on the average par. I am not amazed with myself cause yknow it's just my negative thoughts kicking in. I've been negative towards myself. I am 23 I'm supposed to care about other things which are more important. Who gets depression at this age? Yeap it's me. It's getting out of hands now due to the fact that I'm still searching for myself. I envy to those who are settling down with their lives. Settling down doesn't mean that they are married it's just settling down in terms where they already found themselves.
I just need help. But no one is here to help me and nobody can help me..
