Well hello there. We only left 38 days to enter 2020. In this post I would like to talk about the boomerang effect. I’m sure that every person in this earth experience this or is it just me. I’ve been single since who knows. Throughout my single life, I have this particular thing that I will never move on. You know how we always like those celebrities in your social media and all? I still have the same insta-crush since 2016. Little did I know that I still have a huge crush on him despite the fact that we don’t really interact with each other. *alert* I’ve already confessed to him back in 2016.
Actually, he doesn’t know me and I don’t really know him. I just followed him randomly when I saw one of my school friend which is one of his friend tagged him on instagram. I really don’t remember why my instinct told me to follow him instead of other people. I meant come on! My friend tagged all of his guy friends and yet I chose him. What are the odds? I think I followed him back in 2015 and decided to tell him that he was my insta-crush in 2016. I’ve been fangirling him for almost a year lol I know I’m weird.
Yes throughout those years I did like someone else outside of my social medias. But then it feels different when you have a crush on someone you know from social media. It will always come back to him no matter what. Even whenever people asked me about my type I would go back to him. I showed people my kind of guy that I would marry/date. Even though I don’t know him that well, I dare to tell people he’s definitely fits my ideal guy. I guess that’s what we called boomerang effect. Despite of you having a fling/crush outside of social media, your heart will definitely come back to the one that you actually yearn the most. In my case I’ve realized this a bit latter when I tried to make a move on him but then I was disappointed because I know he’s not even interested in me.
To be frank, I was so excited when I saw he replied my messages but then it ended up pretty yknow bad. It’s not like we fought or what it’s just I know when a guy wants you to leave him alone kind of reply. I was sad that night because yeah I can’t content my excitement when I talked to him. I guess a crush will forever remains a crush. Who definitely crush your heart whenever you approach them. I’m not blaming him for doing that. It’s just so frustrating when you like a guy definitely they wouldn’t reciprocate back to you. It’s hard when you’re not attractive in people’s eyes. I guess it’s okay, I’m so used to it that I don’t feel sad that long.
A rejection is a part of me that I really can be apart from it. 2020 is just around the corner and I can’t afford to have anymore heartbreaks. My heart is definitely can’t be mend anymore. I’m such a joke.
Sincerely,
Lulu
