友達

This post is especially to those that I've decided to stay away and just going to mind my own business. Throughout the year, I just realized that I've given in so much towards everybody in my life and what kind of treatment did I get? Of course I am the punching bag, the one who always being teased about her heartbreak and also the one who always end up being nothing whenever she is with her set of friends. Friends? I don't know throughout my life I've encountered alot of things that in the end I found that some of them were pretty toxic in my life. I may sound ungrateful whiny bitch but then I have my breaking point and limits too. 

Why friends are important me? Because they are the place that I turn to whenever I have no one by my side. I'm the type of person who always confide her feelings because I don't really share my thoughts and feelings with my family. They tend to actually think that I'm always okay no matter what. I am the punching bag of the family. My family is a good family it's just no one take my problems seriously that is why I never share my problems with them. My solution? Of course the answer is friends. Nowadays I feel like the only reason that I'm their friends is because I'm the only place that they can turn to whenever they feel sad about their relationships. Whenever they get their heartbroken by the boyfriends they will definitely asked for my advises and opinions but then the result is that they're gonna leave you return to their boyfriend once they are okay with them. 

Now I've realized that people tend to choose asshole to be with them even though they are being hurt continuously. I feel so disgusted by watching the aftermath of it. Yeah I know I am no one to judge but yeah as a friend that feeling of wanting to protect your friend is really high but yeah no use of protecting someone who doesn't want to be protect. Anyho, I will probably remove some of the people I don't want to be in my social medias and gonna privatize my twitter soon cause yeah I'm tired of being nice. Now I just want to selfish and selfless since everyone is doing the same thing. It's true tho people come and go. I don't need to face this kind of shit and will be removing the toxicity bit by bit. Thanks for the memories and all cacian that I get from protecting my friends and in the end it ends up in vain. Thank you